Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Today is May 20th A month after my second surgery. living with Thoracic outlet syndrome(TOS) (update)

Hello my friends today is one month to the day I had my second surgery it was on April 20 2015.
It as been a long road. I'm still recovering and have a lot of pain. But in time it will get better. Everything just needs time to heal. It's going to take months. But this time around I can walk before on the first surgery this time I could not walk normal at all. I would drag my feet slow because I was so weak. I'm weak but better then the first time. I'm so happy to have my life back. Ready to be there for Julian like I really want. Ready for him to see a healthy mamma.  Its hard to type right now because my left side hurts really bad. But I wanted to tell everyone I'm ok and thank for your sweet comments and support. Its been hard but I'm happy and I would  do it all over again, before if i thought about the future all I could think about is the pain in my body. Now I think of all the things I can't wait to do and looking forward to spending good times with Julian and loved ones. Because my pain is better and in time will be gone, Before I did not know if it was ever going to go. Now I have hope. Doctor says he is amazed on how I look now. When I first came to him I looked sad and broken. Now I have a glow and you can see happiness in my face. Thank you again and I'm happy to share my story and help anyone. Day by day that all you have to do.
This is before my first Surgery I had 11-10-2014. This was at my worse.

Hospital room after my second surgery 

My heart monitor they had to keep close eye on my heart rate
because they removed
about an inch of my first left rip and were working close to my heart

My table what I mess. My flower Julian and Nana give me so cute.

couple days after still in the hospital.. lol look a mess

still a mess 

My bed I sleep in for 5 days. 5 long days trying to sleep. But it my last day

This was about a little more then a week ago. Julian completes 1st Year preschool. We were so happy

The reason I shared my pictures was because no matter what you go through it will get better . Everyday is still hard but like I said I finally look forward to the future was no pain. I'm not there yet but it will come...  HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT DAY ..POST REAL SO AGAIN

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Saturday, April 4, 2015

I'm back for sure got some good news .. living with Thoracic outlet syndrome(TOS)

I had my first Surgery was in November on my right arm again I have Thoracic outlet syndrome with to define it easier is it is Thoracic outlet syndrome is a group of disorders that occur when the blood vessels or nerves in the space between your collarbone and your first rib (thoracic outlet) become compressed. This can cause pain in your shoulders and neck and numbness in your fingers.

So when I went in for surgery they cut about an Inch and a half of my right rib. Once it was cut my blood flow in that arm started to run down my right arm. All my blood was compressed. My right side was compressed on my vein and artery.. Causing me to have pain in arm , neck and shoulders and numbness in my fingers. Also a deep pain in my arm.. Its hard to describe. Like someone is holding your arm as hard as they can and they will not let go. So much pressure I feel and I get so tired and my whole body feels weak. But like I said I got my right side done and I do not feel that great pressure anymore. I do feel the numbness but its a different numbness there are nerves I never used before and now are working. every week I get more feeling back in my arm. Right now I almost have all my feeling back. Their also numbness in my tummy because the doctor told me the nerves are all connected on the right side. But I can bear it now. 

Back to my good news I going to have my second surgery in May. The same thing is happening on both sides but they can only do one side at a time... I'm so happy I'm just ready to get past all this. Its been a long journey. Another thing I had to stop working the pain is getting worse on my left side and my right side is still healing. Its been bitter sweet I was with the company for almost 10 years. But It was something I to do to focus on my health and spending time with Julian and Daddy.  

This is a start for me to just rest and like I said spend time with my loved one's. I still can do everything normal I just have to pace myself everyday. Its been great taking Julian to preschool and going to my sister graduation. I have been loving staying home and just enjoying life. This Time I have time to blog more and capture things I love ans share was all my blogging friends. I know I said it before but I was getting so tired from (TOS) I could not but now I'm home and have time to do what I love. So please stick with me. It means the world to me. I would love to share some great moments from the past couple of weeks with Julian ........Love you guys.

Julian Preschool

Making mama a picture 

bowling time

ready for my fireman Photo shoot lol

ride the pony

mama coffee it was great 

chef Julian 

another check up.. but hanging in 
Cute bunny 
tractor .. Julian loves tractors 

pony again 

Thank you for spending some time with us and if anyone got questions about (TOS) leave me a comment or email me.. I will be happy to help you if I can...       love love

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Friday, March 13, 2015

Products I loved When Julian Was A Baby !!

Julian loved Gerber Puffs if we ran out he would  cry.  He was  addicted to him. I loved them so much . Now Julian is
on to Gold fish(but Walmart got Penguins and they are cheaper and Julian loves them)Walgreens got their brand also that is good. By the way I'm going to do my first Walgreens haul so look for that very soon. I can not wait to try some new products. 
I used every Diaper rash cream I can think of and this one works the best. Other creams
dried Julian skin and the rash did not go away.  With Aquaphor his rash was
gone less then an hour. I still use it when Julian got a runny nose and it gets
dry around his nose. Also on his checks when they get flushed. love it!

I was so scared of putting teething gel on Julian that was not natural Because other gels that are not
natural and have benzocaine to help soothe sore gums but is not safe for children under 2. I loved Hyland's. Their whole brand is great.
Sophie  Giraffe all Natural teething toy. Rubber is natural and safe  for babies. Julian loved it and it really helped
soothe is gums............ best ever 

Fisher Price Sleeper and rocker. I used it when Julian was small  and  its turns
into a rocking chair when he became a toddler. We still uses when he watches T.V.  and rocks back and forth lol
Boppy Nursing Pillow. This pillow made it so much easier when nursing  made Julian and I way more comfy. He will uses it for a pillow lol. HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GREAT DAY TELL ME YOUR FAV BABY PRODUCTS :o)

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Wednesday, March 4, 2015


These days it is so hard to blog all the time like I want but my health is getting better everyday. I'm going to be doing my second surgery on my left arm in a couple weeks because their is blockage of blood flow on that side also. But positive thinking. I don't want to make myself feel like I don't feel good all the time. I feel fine just hurting pains from healing along the way. lol. But I wanted to post some different things Julian and I are just loving right now.

Julian Loving
Transformer Rescue bots toys and cartoon show. Julian says he wants to be an EMT or a Fireman. So rescue bots is the closest to helping people for him. lol.Believe me he also watches all the movies all the time. Over and over again. lol..

Julian also into playing with any kind of trucks, trucks, trucks. He is eating a lot of pea's and toast. Sounds funny he just loves toast with butter. He likes tea from Teavana just like mama. We also been playing around with Play-Doh.. His Nana got him some and now he is hooked. She even found fun Play-Doh tools at Goodwill to make fun things with the dough. Daddy been loving it also. lol.

Books- We have been reading so much books if any one knows anymore good books for a 3 year old about to be 4. I would love to hear from you.

Next mama's things I have been loving

My Nutribullet- love love love. After I had surgery I wanted to make sure I eat more veggies and just be more healthy. Just make one a day and it makes me have more energy and just feel better. I hope in the coming weeks to start using it even more. More info on the Nuribullet I love it because it makes makes great healthy drinks.

I'm really into watching the Wahlburgers. They are so funny

last but not least I have been trying to take care of myself better. For years of not feeling well and then on top of it my surgery. I was started to feel really bad about my self. Years ago before I had Julian and got sick I used to dress up all the time and to my make up. Shopping I loved and I did my hair. It's been hard but I'm trying to take better care of my self. Not that is all life it about and my son is my world. Day by Day :O)

So I been also watching YouTube Videos on different Beauty products and EOS lip balm. They smell so good and it makes my lips feel so soft and it taste good on your lips. 

Happy Hump day my friends and and tell me some things your are loving.

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Monday, February 16, 2015

Valentine's Day

Julian and I had a Great V Day. Daddy had to work but they made me a card and got me flowers. It was a nice day. I got them candy and cute little stuffed monkey and bear. Julian , Daddy and I also made a Valentine's box for Julian preschool class. It was so cute he signed all his cards for his friends. The cards he got from his friends were also so cute. He got a box stuffed with cards lol . Here are so pictures from our nice day.

cards we made

Julian fav truck. It photo bombed us lol

On V day night. Just missing Daddy 

Friday, January 16, 2015

some cute photos from christmas

Here is some pics they are late but better then never. Julian had a great Christmas. I'm still in recovery its taking a long time. But everyday is a bit hard with my pain. But I need to just get up in go if I do not I will be in pain all day. Need to keep the body moving. I now understand just try not to stress the small things. With everything I have been going through its not worth it. If the dishes are not washed they will be soon. lol My Christmas tree is still up but I will take it down this week. It makes us happy. Wish I could put another tree up. An year around tree. That would be nice. I wanted to take classes like I have been last couple of years to get my degree in Social work But my family and my health come first.. Hope everyone's having a great day

Monday, December 29, 2014

Living with Thoracic outlet and missing my blogger buddies and here is why

On November 10 I had surgery I had thoracic outlook and I was in jeopardy of forming blood clots in my arms and my pain was getting worse and both sides of my arms so on November 10 I went in for major surgery and they removed part of my right rib because it was blocking and I have pressure on my artery and vein so I was not getting blood flow the surgery was a success and everything is fine but I'm on my eight weeks of recovery it could be more recovery time there's a lot of pain due to my surgery and the nerve pain because nerves that I have not use the Year's are starting to work I know this is extreme but I want to share with all of you the reason I started this blog is to help moms with things and I kind of got away from it because I start having so much pain during the several years after having my son but I'm glad you guys are with me because I could share my story and help anybody  going through something like this .I'm so sorry have not been there to support you with your blogs lately and be there to share my stories with you as much as I want but I promise when I done with my full recovery I'll be back. unfortunately i have to have surgery on my left side soon. They just did my right side first. So On January 2 th I have another follow up appointment because we have to do my left side I'm not getting blood flow to that side of my arm either it's going to be a major surgery but it's worth it. Like I said if I don't do this I don't have a very good life are a good quality life and my son is very important to me he is the world to me so that's the main reason I'm doing this and my love ones. again thank you for understanding and I will be posting some moments we've had in the past weeks or so because I'm able to do a little bit more and feeling a little better everyday and thinking  positive. p.s Reading all your blogs make me smile and let me know everything will be ok. You will never know how much it means to me.. Lets me pass my time in bed resting in a more positive then feeling sad . Love you.

Hope everyone had a great Christmas

Christmas singing Jiggle Bells. I was so happy
Pics below are also from Julian First Christmas preschool party

My baby made Mama his first Tamale . I loved it.